And just like that…

Me reality screams “but he cheated and he lied for so long.

Then…

the tears flow…

my ears ring louder…

the nausea creeps in…

my head feels full…

my mind races…

my breathe catches…

my heart pounds…

I tremble…

And I feel so weak, so heavy that I don’t want to move…

Now I wait for the numbness

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9 thoughts on “And just like that…

  1. Hugs. Sometimes Numb is all I can feel some days. This rollercoaster we are on is not fair at all. I usually play this song multiple times and loudly when I’m alone in the house or car to help me feel something again. It is usually anger after numb that I feel.

    I hope this passes quickly for you this time because it can be dangerous if we get in a funk with one feeling too long but I don’t even know exactly how long is too long. Just don’t pack up and live in numb as it is no way to live but it is okay to let yourself feel numb from this pain and betrayal you feel.

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  2. Love this song, funny I haven’t listened to it in a while… I’ll go find it and add it to my play list.

    I don’t stay in that raw and dark place.. I can’t.. I get to the numb part and then go on auto pilot.. Showered and presentable, wintery fashionable, hockey mom. Blanket and camera in tow..Getting out the door for a 3:15 game. My son and daughter both play on the varsity team. Nobody will know that I’m a mess inside😔

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  3. I was numb for the first 8 months. I could go weeks without crying. I think my body was protecting my pregnancy. I’ve had preeclampsia with all of my pregnancies except this one. It’s ironic since h told me about all his whores when I was 3 months pregnant.

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